love aint living here anymore

2009-02-18T05:08:00.000-08:00

I dont know whos still reading this little blog of mine.
but yeah i still need to release everything in my heart.
i dont know why am i starting to miss him...
Its beeen a long time that i actually forgotten abt him and now hes back.
but no matter what i still love kerwin more.
i know part of the reason why..
im probably trying to run away from everything.

will a girlfriend of yours say to the gf's boyfriend i wanna pinch your cheek):

have anyone came across such? Im really wondering, its beeen swirling in my head for long very long... you knw how complicating can such things be. YOU DONT WANNA DOUBT YOUR BOYFRIEND AND GIRLFRIEND BUT IF YOU PIECE EVERY SINGLE EVIDENCE UP, THERE WILL BE SOMETHING THAT YOU'll DEFINITELY DOUBT.

yes, im not a person who do things on impulse.. and whats the reason..? i love him too much that i cant bear to lose him and things gotta make clear. Things are so contradicting here.. indeed my boyfriend treats me nice but on the other hand there are things happening here and there... what shld i do? i'll never give up this relationship to a point of time that i found evidence with my own eyes.

Maybe i was just being too sensitive. so ange pls stop all this ridiculous thinking it aint true, you're just thinking too much...

2008-09-15T08:04:00.001-07:00

gone for now.

Feeling

2008-08-31T20:20:00.000-07:00

you've caught my eye.

It's my dear girl birthday

2008-08-28T23:41:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST BABYGIRL♥
best wishes, & y'knw i love you and always do.

Hope you've enjoyed with the girlfriends yesterday, though our plan to eat shidoku was slashed and ended up eating new york new york. We'll eat again alright, we must be the first to queue in the MEANDER super duper long queue. Eating @ new york new york wasnt that bad too, surprising you with the mrs fields cupcakes and tiramisu cake going along with a loud sweeet birthday songs with cantonese, chinese and english version sang by the girlfriends' sweetest angelic voices huh. hehe. Dhoby gaut with brendon, kerwin and samuel were pretty fun, but somehow we are too shag after that cos for some reasons. haha. but i guess we really do enjoy, burbur coke( did i spell correctly?), tiger and grape ss. Tequila as a birthday present brought by the three fakifuck to michielove and cabbed home at 12 midnight. Once again happy birthday Prettymuchlove.(:

On the 28th, went to sleepover at venice's house to bake brownie specially for the birthday girl, teachers and my sister. Went up to jon's house to get eggs cos we're lacked of few eggs, and started baking till 2plus and slept at 3.30am the next morning. Its so damn god tiring and we only slept for 2 and half hours of sleep! ohmygod, went school together w mr sara cos we met him right outside my block and yes we got a free cab ride. hehe.

pictures with lj,joeyee,yr,amanda,steph,theresa,michele will be uploaded soooon!

my lifespan is reduced by another few years with all the lack of sleep and stuff. ohmygodddddessss. haha!

Beginning

2008-08-27T04:01:00.000-07:00

I've finally finish doing my whole blog and the top picture and now my blog looks new again=D

I think i need a new & good hair shampoo, that'll have super effects for hair, any recommendations? haha(for some reasons)

I got tricked by the ganjaros. They lied to me that my hair got the freaking bird shit, i got shocked and kept whining to them that i wanna go back home to wash my hair and they said in the end that they're just joking. -.- & the naughty venicedear went to tell people abt my story when im at home with amandadear the other time. I got freaked out by her and wj when they knocked on my window.like seriously.

I will not go out till late anymore till during sep hols and only on some occasion but not as often i got to build up the trust with my dad and let him know that when im hang out late till midnight not anything or what. He just have the thinking that im learning and trying out 'new' things outside.

&I am really looking forward to meeet mf ppl for the chalet. hehe. lovelove
dad says my eating speed is still too fast, so people control me kay. 1min three mouths of food?(:

I pray hard for my term 3 progress report that i'll get top 10 if not i swear i will be damn upset.

your guardian angel.

GOD, i cant stand people with two face esp. wtf.

KILLS

2008-08-25T07:43:00.000-07:00

HAPPIEST FUN DAY IVE EVER HAD WITH THE MOFOS ON FRIDAY(:<3

Upload pictures soooon, maybe not here.
maybe i gonna say bye to smiley.

sleeping time,kids. nights

eric and the dinosaur

2008-08-24T08:03:00.001-07:00

I LIKE THE DRAWINGS VERY MUCH!(: WEBCAMING WITH THE TWO GUINEA PIGS WAS FUNNNNNNN! (:

fell in love with a

2008-08-24T02:06:00.000-07:00

lovely pretty boy...

The past

2008-08-21T07:22:00.000-07:00

Nothing much about life this few days,
have been hanging out at the usual simei starbucks.

I have no reasons to this but i just miss sheeka somehow, hehe. It's like we used to be quite close or should i say very close and now we didnt really talk. But ive just met her today, its pretty good chatting with her for just few minutes.

Imissyou, sheeeka(: guess she wont be reading my blog either? haha.

Ive lost contact with many of my other friends when i came into secondary school cos ive found a bunch of fun loving hilarious people,cliques, girlfriends and friends. But definitely the olds will still be rememebered especially my pri sch friends.

Goodnight, loves.

IM SO FREAKING PISSED WITH A SELLER, IF I DONT GET MY LIGHTNING LOGO TEE, I PROMISE IM GOING TO SCREW YOU UPSIDE DOWN LIKE SERIOUSLY FUCK!

My mind just cant settle down

2008-08-15T20:50:00.000-07:00

Studies always in my mind now, but definitely girlfriends are forever.

im determined.

just found out something, pls dont put a fake mask in front of me.

kerwin and amanda soooon(:

stressed

2008-08-14T04:16:00.000-07:00

I seriously need relieving stress pills! >=[

my ss test can go eat shit liaosxz...

'time & tides wait for no man' hehe. amanda, i'll prove to you, you're my motivational person? (:

Majors, Minors.

2008-08-12T02:53:00.000-07:00

School's been a tradition.
Im starting t feel weird cos of you lil minor..

Greatest love t my loveliest grandma, hugs♥

Under the moonlight

2008-08-09T20:37:00.000-07:00

WARNING! OVERDUE PICTORES

ruby, angela, suf, james

On the thursday, i could finally say hi to my lil smiley with my dear michele accompanying me. Met liang and vans and we went seperate ways. Headed to my favourite hangout starbucks w michele and met the ganjaros and joy's friend. wonderful time spent till 11plus and home.

clem, james, suf, ruby (:

the ganjaros

On the friday, supposingly didnt plan to go to X-country but emily and ying called and so i cabbed down t find them and to get back my phone. Met suf, clem, joyce, fay, james, dino & jason. Went home t change and met the ganjaros and headed to agus bbq @ pasir ris park, the birthday boy! Bbq, slack, chit-chat, venice, jason and jacob came t join us. Under the moonlight we played this game called the dare square. It was a pretty fun game, i had great fun with the ganjaros.

On the sat, happy birthday singapore, much love. hehe. NDP with amanda love and it was pretty crowded, overcrowding y'knw. It was quite a cool scene in the parade and you can have a clearer look of the black knights and red lions etc. I feel so singaporean when im in the parade. lol. Headed to DIN TAI FUNG for xiaolongbao and noodles and went t marina square t meet the ganjaros and few other people was super shocked t see them cos its like so manymany people around. Played w dino and reuby some food game, able t squeeze all the crackers in your mouth, but amanda and i couldnt. haha. Simei after that w them and we had some eerie stories session till i had goosebumbs,its super scary& its late at night already, waited for sis and home at 1plus close t 2(:

Love you guys♥
amanda.ruby.suffie.richie.eric.jason.clement.agusto.faiz.venice.dino and manymany more.
You guys had make my day a wonderful, loving, hilarious day.

crush

Changed

2008-08-07T02:58:00.000-07:00

I pray hard for the rain to stop...

There's no such thing in the world

2008-08-05T17:00:00.000-07:00

Im still a happy girl cos ive still got my family and friends around me(:
but i just cant stand it.

told mum & dad abt the situation:

and mum said : yes, the teacher is being unreasonable in a way..

whereas dad says: hai, in this world the higher post in the school always win, so he's trying t say that teachers always WIN, biased-ness happens in the world. Students will have no chance t fight for their rights.

end.

Its always darkest before dawn

2008-08-05T04:23:00.001-07:00

(removed)

busybodiessssss.tsktsk

My paper hearts beat for you

2008-08-03T07:07:00.000-07:00

Happened t past by some blog and saw that this girl was with my ex not adam but before him. What happen t me is what's happening on the girl now, a playback. Time spent w michele, theresa and amanda was a productive one. Watched ' money not enough' with amanda, the storyline is there but its quite a boring show for me. Its all about elderly taking care of the younger ones and the younger ones do not appreciate it. I redo my whole blog again cos i was thinking t use my previous blog that can change the skin and deleted this blog, but how i know i came t the conclusion that my previous link sound so weird and yeah back t the normal again(:

i love my mum & dad.

goodnight people,

a pleasing today,

but a better tomorrow.

♥